Time

Lately I've been feeling as though time is not on my side. I find myself often wishing I could have time to do what I  want to do, not what my life wants me to do. Sometimes I don't want to do my homework, but my life says, "You can't play Sims or text your friends! Go do that social studies homework you should have done a few days ago." I know other people get along with their lives just fine with the same amount of time to live as me. They might even be more successful than me. My parents call me well rounded. I tackle cello, piano, soccer, field hockey, various summer camps, girl scouts, and school. I just don't want to have all that in my schedule. I'd be happy to drop soccer if it meant I would just have to go for a run every four days or so. But then I imagine my life without a few of the things I have in my life. What would my life be without girl scouts? I wouldn't get the silver trefoil or whatever the awards are. That might influence the college I get to go to. What if I didn't do soccer? I wouldn't be in very good shape. What would happen if I dropped summer camps? I would be bored many days in the summer, I wouldn't socialize, and I would not be ready for the routine of school in September. And if I didn't do cello and piano? I would not be musical, and that is something I value very much. Thinking about what my life would be like without my various obligations makes my life seem to be... not my life. My activities are what make my life my life. They shape me, my thoughts, my actions, everything about me.